But God, I Don’t Wanna!!!! You can’t Make Me!!!


Sometimes God tells us to do things we don’t want to do!

Verse of the Day

Love does no wrong to a neighbor [it never hurts anyone]. Therefore [unselfish] love is the fulfillment of the Law.

Sometimes God and I don’t agree. Sometimes quite frankly my flesh doesn’t like what He say. Sometimes I want to shake my fist at God and scream “NO!”. That had never been more true Friday morning.

Friday morning I was tired, felt used, worn out and taken advantage of, I wanted to lay and bed shirk my responsibilities and be pissed off. I was hurt. I feel like I am always turning the other cheek. I feel like I am always showing love. And mostly I feel like that love is taken for granted.

Sometimes I don’t want to listen, to get up, to serve. Sometimes I want to be selfish and let the world know I am hurt. I want to yell back when I am yelled at.

Friday, morning when I woke up to verses about loving others and serving others, I wanted to pull my covers over my head and continue crying. I definitely didn’t want anyone to think I was over being hurt!

More than cry, Friday I just wanedt to quit. Curl up in bed and not face the world or the
never ending chores, the constant non-stop whining, a feeling that no one sees ME or notices ME. So I wanted to quit it all.

I can’t say I made God proud Friday morning. I stayed in bed to long. I hid past the first knock on my door. I ignored the second voice. I responded bitterly to texts and tried to ignore all the messages God sent me to be the example and make a kind choice.

No I didn’t M as me God proud Friday, I stayed angry and isolated. Infact I only got up when asked about tea. I didn’t get up out of kindness or compassion. I just figured it would be more work to explain via text where the tea was, how to measure it and everything involved. I got up and joined the living because I didn’t have patience to explain how to make a cup of tea.

God was right. I was needed. I am always talking about making the hard choices, even when we don’t want to do something. It doesn’t ring true when I can’t do this. God told me clearly to put aside my feelings and make the first effort. I chose not to listen. I hurt at least one person who didn’t deserve to be hurt. And I wasn’t a very good disciple of God’s love.

So, I knew at 7:15 Friday morning I should get up. I refused to leave my bed until almost 8am and honestly it was another 15 minutes before I listened to God and put my anger aside enough to start to forgive.

Listening to God is hard and again our nature but when we do, it makes life easier and more worthwhile.

Sincerely with

Humility Grace Mercy

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