Why God? When God? I want the promise without the pain…

“For Your salvation I wait, O LORD.
Genesis 49:18IMG_0657

Do you ever want to just give up? Walk away? You have no doubt that this path is where God put you but it is too hard? It isn’t going according to your plan and some people are resisting.


I might be sure I am where God wants me but today, well the last three days, I have wanted to walk away. Close the door and lock it. Say this isn’t worth the risk to my heart.

I want to cry out to God, I trust you completely Lord but my heart is in the hands of a fallible human. One who doesn’t see your plan and seems to be holding on to me until something better comes along. What if I’m wrong? What if I’m not hearing You Lord but only what I want to hear? If it’s what I want to hear why am I still here?

God says very clearly and repeatedly to trust in Him always, not only when things are going well but in the hard times, also. God promises His perfect timing, not what we think would be convenient.  God does not promise that things will be easy, only that He will be there. If I know all this why does every piece of my flesh tell me to run and never look back. It tells me to end things before I really get hurt, again, by this plan of God’s. I have to trust God.

I guess this is a timing thing, we must wait on God’s timing.

How disappointed must Abraham been every month and how much trust must it have taken as the years went by.

Imagine how foolish must Noah have felt, as he built an arc for a flood, when God sent rain, it had never rained, much less flooded and 90 years past before the storm came.

How desolate must Joseph have been after such prophetic dreams, to have been sold as a slave and then falsely accused and thrown in prison.

How must have Daniel felt as he walked into the Lions den?

Moses must have felt confused and hopeless, knowing he was to free the Isrealites from slavery and being exiled as a murder.

Imagine David’s continuous heartbreak after being annointed king and doing God’s will repeatedly for 15yrs as his father figure tried to kill him.

Imagine John the Baptist feeling as his head was literally on the chopping block, wondering if it was worth it.

And the disciples as they feared for thier lives and waited anxiously for Jesus to return.

Through it all God’s timing is always perfect.

I don’t pretend to be one of the greats but I should trust God and be able to deal with hurt feelings, emotional dismissal, feeling a bit used and unappreciated. God has clearly told me where I belong. Why should I doubt?

God promises me He has a plan and this is where I belong. I most follow His will. I don’t always want to. I wrote a long, ‘so long’ email just this morning.

I know I have no right to send it and I know I have to trust in God although it’ seem pointless, even detrimental.

I have to wait on the Lord’s timing even when earthly reasoning says it’s foolish.

I have to rely on God when I don’t understand His plan or how it could possibly work out.

Psalm 56:1-5 NASB
[1] Be gracious to me, O God, for man has trampled upon me; Fighting all day long he oppresses me. [2] My foes have trampled upon me all day long, For they are many who fight proudly against me. [3] When I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. [4] In God, whose word I praise, In God I have put my trust; I shall not be afraid. What can mere man do to me? [5] All day long they distort my words; All their thoughts are against me for evil.

Isaiah 26:4 NASB
[4] “Trust in the LORD forever, For in GOD the LORD, we have an everlasting Rock.

Daniel 6:23 NASB
[23] Then the king was very pleased and gave orders for Daniel to be taken up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den and no injury whatever was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

Hebrews 2:12-13 NASB

Sincerely with

Humility Grace Mercy


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